Tuesday, May 31, 2005
retail therapy 9994
GSS update:
a pair of ear-rings, a bracelet
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:51 am
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Monday, May 30, 2005
retail therapy 9995
GSS update:
a skirt fr ness...
all cos i went shopping w my family yday, fr town to the heartland malls...;p
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:20 pm
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
retail therapy 9996
hey it was a long day today. first it was family day@ pasir ris park. played some games. spent most of the time baby-sitting susan's daughter with sarah. we were the pink team. i love kids. i mean i dun mind looking aft them for a while but i cant imagine myself with my own kids. the caring for them process such as putting up w their cries. ha...took the aftnoon nap b4 going to ah ma's hse. wnated to do some homework but def no mood.
oh yah yday retail therapy 9996. first day of GSS n i bought 2 skirts already.
plan for the hols
to put on some wt so tt i can wear the formal skirtswhich now i cant.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:21 pm
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Thursday, May 26, 2005
hols assignment
aiyo received some assigments even b4 hols. some "kind" soul dropped a last min bomb n i haven get dwn to it yet. i was all ready to explain should the need arise but it's all abt ethics. wanted to wake up early to work on it but i was too sleepy to pull myself out of bed. not when the pillow was wet b4 i close my eyes. gonna leave soon to get work done. gonna get thru this wk n next b4 i can haf time for myself. since i wont be going out often during the hols, i plan to go for facial n rest at hm.
looking forward to GSS tmr cos already made plans to go out. ha...retail therapy 9996! stay tuned to get an update of my new collection.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:20 am
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
retail therapy 9997
hmmm 9997...did i rem it correctly? counting dwn to the no of therapies i can haf this lifetime. dinner was at pasta cafe...my fav carbonara! dessert was at marche...chocolate brownie w a scoop of ice-cream. yummy!!!
things i bought --- an orange tube fr mng, a palette of eye shadow, a hp pouch (an identical one so tt i can replace the old one)
wat's awaiting me? more work!!!
hopefully this work will keep my mind occupied while waiting
time for lala land b4 i wake up to complete my work...
to him: take as long as u want. i'll wait. i juz wanna u to know tt i care. the stupid me juz dunno how else to show tt i care.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:27 pm
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the long wkend
obviously waiting faithfully by my hp
saturdayhad mac bfast w mum b4 she headed off to work while i went to collect my passport. yup finally get dwn to renewing it. met sis at bugis. she wanted to get bks fr kino. while browsing, this book caught my attention. it's "the other woman's shoes" by adele parks. life of modern women in short. finished reading the bk the very day. did some self reflection too. finally went to visit ah ma aft a mth. hmmm wat haf i been busy w...cant rem...slept early...
sundaythe usu lor...fetched ah ma to temple, lunch w family n another slp all day. attended siti's wedding in the aftnoon.
mondaybrunch @ jln kayu. i had 2 cheese, one plain n 1/2 a plate of bryani. nap then met zhenshan to jalan jalan @ tm. had dinner at hm b4 having coffee at wssc. i was in shorts n specs n yet spotted by a kid. well couldnt recognise her though but she was pointing at me while talking to her mum. when asked to greet me by her mum, she didnt. so i ignored her lor. she even told her sis abt me. but apparently she juz nv greet me. well at least i'm definite tt she's not my student cos my students would be able to say hi since they always do tt in sch. it's so obvious tt i'm being spotted cos my fren even realised it when he's queuing for drinks. i was abt to msg him when he called out to me. ha...wat a big deal...being spotted by a kid oni. ha...a sudden feeling of being a superstar. lol...
quote fr the book i read
~if it was not for hope the heart would break~
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:23 am
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
a wk of emotions
i muz admit tt i'm a strforward person n i need a definite ans always. so i asked for an ans. i spared little thoughts of wat he's going thru. i feel bad. i haven been caring n considerate. i've been selfish. but i need the ans so tt i can move on. i hope u can understand me given the little time we spend tog. u can haf all the time now. i'll wait...
HUMULU
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:09 pm
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
the cloudy sky is cleared
the cloudy sky has cleared though it's still grey. at least the rain is over. neither thunder nor lightning at nites. will the storm be here again? yah definitely. at least it's so peaceful now. i felt so much better after breaking the ice. my heart feels a little warmth now.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:20 am
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005
the train ride
feeling low, left the sch leaving empty again. i decided to go for a ride to clear my thoughts too. on tt train journey, we managed to talk it out. at least i know the status now. slowly adapting to the situation i haf to, my heart lost its feelings.
finally sat dwn at coffeebean. mocha n cheesecake...
managed to fall aslp once i hit the bed.
dazed still as the day begins
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:32 am
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
we r strangers
i feel it. juz tell me tt i'm right.
the familiar frangance once again...
i hope i did the right thing.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:38 am
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the lonely tues morning
i used to look forward to tues cos we get to spend time tog. look at how much time we do spend tog, i really appreciate tues. the small incident which happened yday was enuf for me to read u n tt was one reason y i popped tt qns over dinner. the emptiness in my heart yday on tt short journey still stayed on till now. it's oni a matter of time tt such things should happen. i was juz hoping tt it wouldnt come so soon aft talking abt it for many times. the short cold period of tt few hrs over the past mths already hurt me. u cant see the bleeding in my heart, but it's there. every time tt wound heals, it opens again, each time the stab is deeper. you haf enuf to worry tt's y i nv tell u. or rather how much time haf u spend w me? u seldom bear ur heart out too unless i ask. mayb they're in a better position to tell u abt ur faults, definitely not me. i didnt know u for as long as u know them. follow ur heart cos i saw it coming fr ur initial action. my fears were confirmed or at least i feel so. dun worry abt me for i wont cry in front of u anymore. at least last nite i managed to hold it till i reached the beach. i will turn my back n take my leave. i believe i know when tt should b. n when i leave, no matter how my heart sinks, i will nv look back...cos i know i shouldnt b looking back. no pt looking back when u've chosen tt path. i'm brave for i know i haf to. at least, i know my hp wont b ringing in the morning n hearing ur voice again.
HUMULU
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
7:58 am
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flooded
i didnt know tt i had tt much tears in me. it juz flowed lk nobody's business. i sobbed for nearly 2 hrs. n now aft coming back fr the sea, i'm still in tears. drove to the sea cos i needed the wind to blow my troubles away n the splashing of the waves against the rocks to hide my cries. at least i wont look ugly cos it's dark. ha...wat a vainpot still. but tonight, there's neither strong wind nor waves. i could hear myself sobbing away. my cheeks were wet cos there was no wind to blow it dry. my thoughts still linger, refused to go away. everytime i think of it, my cheeks became wet n my nose was blocked. it took me some time to clear it but aft clearing it, it soon became blocked. for tt 2 hrs, i let it all out. all tt was inside me since last tues when i heard it. i thought it's juz another tough time but apparently, it seems tougher this time. the critical issue had been brought up n discussed. some actions were taken too n i know i was affected somehow or rather to a large extent emotionally. the many crying myself to slp nites but opened my eyes to realise tt i haven slept long b4 i wake up again to the same starless nite. staring at the hp beside my bed. tt's the hope i'm living by everyday. no one knows for how long this hope will stay. some day it'll be gone n i'm all alone again...
SOLITUDE
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:53 am
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Monday, May 16, 2005
sleepless nites
been tossing n turning at nite tt i hardly get enuf slp at all...always turning to look at the time on my hp which was by my bedside. when will these sleepless nites ever end?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:44 pm
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Friday, May 13, 2005
a bad friday
shocked n a loss for words...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:29 pm
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Thursday, May 12, 2005
L-R: zhen shan, fiona, yoek ling, hui zhi, zhi yin, me
@Whatever on saturday
another meeting session but this time hui ling is posted overseas n jenny was at work. sigh...but it's alright cos we had a fun time chatting, finding out how each n every one of us is coping in our profession n personal life...off to meet my hall frenz for shopping. last activity of the day was drinking at brewreckz (did i get this right?). nice place to drink n i lk their beer. but as usu, ppl dun let me drink much cos i'm still a kid...overall, i managed to de-stress a bit n i got a pair of heels fr the much trusted brand cum fav of mine but it's giving me blisters! ouch!!! argh!!!
ciao to the sea of red....at least for this wk...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:22 am
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
ssh
lost when i heard it. but kind of expecting it. it's oni a matter of time. gonna prepare for the worse. muz b brave
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:00 am
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005
i need a "doughnut"
~ i need a "doughnut" in the sea of red.~
can you guess its meaning? ha...the "doughnut" is a float to keep u fr drowning. ha...all cos a float looks lk a doughnut. ha...hmmm mayb i didnt tell it in a funny way tt's y i dun see u laughing. all i know was tt we had a gd laugh in the morning.
i had the thought of doing work at the airport. but aft dinner, i headed str to bed, oni woke up to ans calls. finally woke up aft the 2nd call. juz bathed, checking mail n i'll get back to work again. sigh...really looking forward to the hols. i need a BREAK! but i need COFFEE now!!! can some kind soul bring it for me? ha...
set sail to the sea of red now...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:50 pm
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Monday, May 02, 2005
i'm sorry
i'm sorry tt my words n actions hurt u so much...not finding excuses but juz hope u'll understand tt it was unintentional. if u hadnt realise, i'm stressed since dunno when n still am. mood swings do get me these days. sigh
i'm short tempered recently, snapped at those who r dear to me. can hardly ctl myself. gosh...wat's wrg w me? too much stress???
wat's done cant b undone...but i'm really sorry. at least i know i'm wrg...
lesson learnt - sorry is nv enuf
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:48 am
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Sunday, May 01, 2005
bugged by mood swings
hasnt been feeling gd recently but m gald tt the company of frenz made a difference. G.A is always ard for me, at least once a wk-supper, listening ear, punching bag (a little lah on the shoulder oni), juz enuf to make me feel gd again. glad tt we enjoy each other's company.
1/2 way thru markings. got bored of it so m here to load the fotos as u can see below. the little things which i pamper myself with since no one pamper me as much n often as i pamper myself. so "much" of savings this mth.
m now paranold if my hair will still remain str aft i wash it tmr. was told not to wash it for a day. done so many trt in the past but nv hear of such things. oh well...u'll knwo if it's str if u stay tuned here. ha...
ciao. markings AGAIN!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:47 pm
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retail therapy "9998"
3/4 pants n a pair of ear-rings fr last wk
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:39 pm
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retail therapy "9999"
my new top n short skirt (will i ever wear them? soon?) juz realised tt i've got much more clothes waiting to b worn. ha...buy cos it's lk at first sight but seldom wear. always wearing the same few ones...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:37 pm
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my long wkend =)
The mid-yr exam is ard the corner so much work to be done n the stress level is high. Brought back a bag of work to do but haven work on it yet. Fri was a bad day, was feeling dwn dwn dwn. In the end did nothing exceot dinner, tv, bathe n slp.
Yday was a great day. Woke up at 11am to receive a sms fr S.F to ask if I’m in sch doing “my all time fav activity”. Ha there I was lying in bed still. Lazed ard till it was time to get changed to go dwn to dwn. Shopping khaki was…sis…to celebrate the end of her exams. Lunch was our first activity. My fav la-mian fr cj. Had it last wk but nv get tired of it. The salon was our next place. Had a new hair-do. Not tt new except to get my fringe cut n the much needed hair trt. Sis did hair trt too. Some said we’re sisters but others said we’re frenz. Ha…I stepped out of the hair salon feeling happy. The S.Q begins her adventure. She bought a top fr the first shop-fond hugs@suntec. A skirt n an elastic bangle fr WH, a new shop at taka basement, whr the optical shop used to be. Wanted to get a pair of working shoes fr isetan but no size. Ha…no need to sign…at the end of S.Q’s adventure, she burnt a hole in her wallet but at least she was happy. Oh yah, her sis’s expenses was taken care by her too. Ha…
Best activity of the day was the supper-prata at 201 w S.F. wanted to go to tt place by the sea at pasir ris park but was told by S.F tt it had been closed dwn. The stubborn her insisted to go there to have a look but due to no parking space, they nv get out of the car. Wanted to go watch the landing n taking of planes but tt place had been sealed off too. Sigh. Ended up chatting in the car cos of all the “ka-ka” tt was “attracted” to us. S.F is a great company who nv fail to cheer me up for all my bad days so far. She reached hm at 2 plus in the morning aft much coaxing.
Woke up early to attend the weekly Sunday morning prayers. Had bfast, grocery shopping then off to orchard again. Ha…this time was lunch at taka cj to celebrate bro’s bdae. The usu long queue made a man angry. A hungry man is an angry man. Shall not elaborate. Shopped for a while but my parents dun lk the crowd so we left early. So contradicting cos mum n my 2 sis were at tm shopping while I was at hm napping in the aftnoon. The usu bdae celebration w a cake, song n photo taking. Tried to get more slp b4 I embark on an all day battle to complete my WORK! Markings, lp n whatever I haf not completed. Sigh…another rnd of supper later. Hee…looking forward to it. Haven been meeting up w my gal frenz for a long time. But I should be meeting them soon cos we’ve make plans for thur n sat. yippee.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:03 pm
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